Friday, December 28, 2012

Twenty One Years Later, A Personal Journey

Each time a semester has ended since I went back to school, I have posted up the assignments
I have done. This Fall semester ended for me on December 3, but I have been 
putting off posting my work. I choose to wade through some
pretty emotional stuff this semester, and I feel very vulnerable 
putting it out for all to look at.

My brother Allan died in 1991; this last March marked 21 years since his death. That really got
me thinking about how much has changed since then. Where my brothers and I are in this life and
how my parents have changed over the years.
I have four daughters who have never met him, and yet they know
they have an Uncle Allan that died. But he is just this mythical person out there in heaven somewhere.

I started thinking about the things he left behind. The things that my family has saved. Things he made,
letters he wrote, clothes he wore. Especially the clothes he was wearing the night he died. This is where
inspiration hit. I called my mom, and email my brother Chris. I asked 
if I could borrow Allan's things that they had for a photo project I wanted to do.
Assuring them that they would get everything back, and hoping beyond hope that Chris's stuff wasn't
packed deep in a storage unit, they agreed to let me borrow whatever I wanted. 
Getting the stuff ... that was the easy part, next I had to figure out what exactly to do with it all.

Thankfully when your a Senior Level Photo Major, the teachers pretty much
let you do what you want. After a few discussions with my Studio teacher, Leighton,
I set off on my first project. I shot this on 4x5  b&w film on a 4x5 view camera. I set up a large scale still life with Allan's belongings. Then I aimed a spot light at different areas 
thereby breaking up the large still life into 5 smaller ones. The effect was a very "crime scene" type of look. It came out looking exactly how I was feeling at the time, a bit standoffish.
You see I knew I wanted to do this,  but I was uncomfortable with dredging up all the emotions that
came along with it.



Studio Assignment #1





Next came my assignment for my Advanced Silver class. I began feeling a bit more comfortable with what I was doing. I wanted it to have
a more dreamlike appeal, so I used my Holga camera, with 120mm b&w film.
Everything came out very soft, but I think it is very powerful in its softness. The 
words I wrote to go with each image are reflecting on time and change, and even longing.

You will always be young in our ever aging minds

Time steals you from our memories

21 years later and this is what remains of you.

How long till you are forever forgotten.


Studio Assignment #2
This project I shot on my digital camera. This first image I did not actually turn in, I used the second helmet shot, because I felt it fit in better with the other closely cropped shots, but I still think this first image is quite strong on it's own.
I wanted to get in closer the objects. I wanted to show their wear and tear from use
by their owner. I should also mention that all four of these items Allan was
wearing at the time of his death. They have a great significance to me, my brothers, and parents. However I soon discovered that they 
do not hold the same meaning for my children. Which leads me into my final project.






Studio Assignment #3
As with the first assignment I shot this on 4x5 b&w film on a 4x5 view camera. My parents came to visit for Thanksgiving and were such good sports to let me take them 
up to the school's studio one night and be in my photos. At this point I had been working with 
Allan's stuff for three months and was very comfortable with what I was doing. 
I wanted to show how the next generation is removed from what these objects mean to Allan's immediate family. I gave each of my daughters (minus the baby) an item to interact with.
I gave them no direction other than that they had to stay in one spot so as to not
go out of focus. Each child's personality really came out in the photos. I love them, not just because
they are photos of my kids, but because they are beautifully shot

For my parents, I gave them each an item. I told my dad to look through the wallet, and I would take the shot when I saw what I wanted to see on his face. No Pressure right! 
The same for Mom. I gave her a letter that Allan had written her, and had her read it over and over
till I saw what I was looking for. 
There they are, parents who lost a son 21 years ago, reflecting on who he was, and what they lost.



 






Thus ends my personal journey. I can honestly say that this was
difficult for me, but well worth my efforts. I felt Allan close by me when I was working on each 
assignment. It was funny. Each time I tried to force the work I had difficulties, but when I would
pray for help and inspiration, and let loose my grip on the controls, that was when
everything would come together. I felt very led by the Spirit during this process, 
and along the way, I dealt with some old feelings that I had pushed aside years ago.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Who's 5 ???

How can it be that my little gum drop, my little Sassy McFrassy, Miss Adelaide Etta Poyfair is FIVE years old! I know everyone says they grow up too fast, but in this case I really feel like it's so true.
She has been my little buddy, my side-kick for five fantastic years. I told her not to get any older when she turned three, but she insisted on being four. I told her she was not allowed to be five, but look at what she went and did! In less than a year my buddy will be in Kindergarten, and I will miss her so much! I love my days with her and Carmella. I wouldn't give up a single day with them. Well maybe just the really cranky days.

For her birthday this year she was very specific on what she wanted. A Princess Camping Candy Party.  What could I do but provide that for her. My parents came for Thanksgiving this year, so we decided to have her party the Saturday after Turkey Day. It turned out to be the perfect Texas November day for an outside party. Jason, the good dad that he is, set up our big tent in the backyard. Mom and I got to work decorating it. I tried to imagine what a princesses tent would look like when she is camping. I'm not sure we got it right, but I think we came pretty close.
Mom and I made tutus for all the party girls, which were a big hit. I also made Royal Bandannas for all the Princes and Princesses. Of course you need your Royal Bandanna when camping. The boys also got swords and axes to slay any passing dragons, or thieves that may be lurking in the Royal Camp Ground. (We did in fact have a few present stealing bandits.)

The kids played tug of war against Jason, the kids won of course. We had a "campfire" that everyone sat around to eat snacks and listen to the Princess "ghost" stories. We also played duck duck goose, and many other camping type games. Mom and I made yummy smore's pops in lieu of cake. They turned out so good, and no left over cake, Yea!

For the Princes

 Our tissue paper Chandelier

 For the Princesses

 Tug - of - war

Get that guy!

 Snack and story time






 The kids took turns making up their own princess story

 Emilie and Ivy, our tricky Bandits
Hey bring back those presents!!

All in all I think Addy had a pretty magical fifth birthday party. She hasn't stopped talking about it yet!

Sunday, November 11, 2012

12 Great Years

Emilie is now Officially a Beehive! She is twelve years old now, and is entering the 
glorious and fun world of Young Womens, and pre-teendom.
She is a great girl. I love spending time with her. We had
a great time this weekend for her birthday. Friday I took her shopping. She picked
out a super cute new outfit, and we had great time talking, and laughing together.
Saturday we got a babysitter, and Jason and I took her to the movies.
She is so fun to watch movies with. She gets so excited and into
what she is watching. The movie really comes
alive through her.

Sunday, her actual birthday, she was not too happy with me
because I made her take part in her final Primary Program. I even made her 
write a one minute talk for her part 
in the program. I know, I know, Mean Mom!
She did go to Young Women's for the first time, and she 
loved it.
She also met the our Bishop for her age 12 interview, and 
got a temple recommend to attend
 her first baptisms for the dead at the  Dallas Temple on Saturday.
She is super excited about that!
For her birthday dessert she decided on ice cream pizza.
We had a great time digging in with our forks and 
eating right off the pizza pan.
What a fun idea she had. We'll be making this again.
I think Jason wants one for his birthday day now.
We may have a new family tradition in the making.

Happy Birthday to you Emilie.
I love you,
Mom
Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you ...


Little baby fingers couldn't wait.
Sugar cookie crust
strawberry ice cream
chocolate syrup
whipped cream
 and cherries
DELICIOUS!




 Dig in Everybody!!!



Thursday, November 1, 2012

water, worms, and wands

Today I had the joy and pleasure to host Adelaide's preschool class. We learned about the letter W. At first I wondered why on earth did I pick W? I even considered changing it at the last minute. I'm so glad I didn't. I've pondering on what to do with the kids for last few weeks, and drawing a complete blank. So, I decided it was time to call in the big guns. No, not super experienced teacher Jason, My Heavenly Father. The most experienced teacher of all. I prayed for inspiration, and boy did it ever strike when I needed it. I was flooded with ideas all of a sudden, and everything came together beautifully.

We talked about the letter W and what it looks like, what sound it makes, and what things start with W. We talked a lot about water, and some of it's many uses. Then we went outside to play with water sensory boxes. I have been wanting to make sensory boxes for Addie and Ella for a while now and I am super excited to have a water one all ready for them. It was also probably the easiest to make. A plastic storage bin filled with about 2 quarts of water. Some measuring cups and spoons, and some plastic sea creatures. The kids loved this activity. With played with it for a little over 30 minutes, and when entertaining 6 preschoolers, that's saying something.

Form there we moved on to worms. I bought a container of big juicy night crawlers. We took some out and held them. We talked about where they live, and what they eat. We watched them wiggle around on the ground, and we saw how they use their bodies to crawl. The boys were a little squeamish at first, but soon warmed up to our wiggly friends. The girls dove right in, holding them and washing them with water from our boxes. When our worms needed a break from all the attention, we went inside to paint worm pictures with cooked spaghetti noodles. We dipped the noodles in paint, and pulled them across the paper the way worms crawl, to make worm tracks. The kids thought this was cool. I'm a little afraid I didn't throw away as many noodles as I cooked. I wonder where they all went??? We also painted wormy apples. Apples pictures with a hole in them for their finger worm to fit through.

We took a walk around our circle, and got our wiggles out by doing the hokey pokey. We played with colored ice cubes from my fish, star, and pumpkin trays. they colored ice was actually a bigger hit than I expected, and the kids liked munching on the cold frozen shapes. 

We read books about witches for our last activity of the day. I love how easy it is to get the kids to settle down for a story. They love books and being read to. I could have gone on longer and I think they would have loved it, but by then it was lunch time.

Everyone got to take home a whistle, some gummy worms, a magic wand that I made for them, and a cup of live worms. I had so much fun, and I am so thankful the the inspiration that came to me. It is such a small thing, but it really means a lot to me that everything worked out so well.









Saturday, October 27, 2012

ghosts, ghouls, and princesses too

Last night we held our Fifth Annual Poyfair Halloween Party.
It pretty much rocked. We had a total of 28 kids
running through our house last night. I'm actually a little
disappointed we didn't hit 30. 
Once again Jason mesmerized the kids with his 
ghost stories. Ivy and Mason even jumped
in with a couple of their own. 
Adelaide mostly hid behind the chair till the
stories were over.

They played Zombie Tag, Tricks for Treats,
went on a Treasure Hunt, did the Limbo,
and we ended with a costume parade to the park. 
Complete with glow sticks for everyone.

In past years I have failed to get pictures of the kids
in their costumes. This year I finally got smart.
I had Emilie set me up a little photo spot out front. As the kids
arrived I had them pose for pictures, then today I went over to
cvs and printed a picture for each kid.  They came out totally cute.
I think I will do it this way from now on.
I so love our Halloween party. I am so glad we
do this each year. 

Now I just have to wait 
till next year to do it again! 

 Ghost story time




 My little sour puss


 Ella is always ready for a photo


Mason the Angry Bird Zombie
 Bailey and Shelby
 Joshie
 Hannah, Sarah, Josh, and Penny
 Tyler
 Abby and Kambry
Ethan, Alaina, and Jeremy 
Alexis and Hailey